thErE aRE TimES

There are times

When I just wanna lie down

Pretend that I´m dead

Trying to sleep

Trying to forget

Trying to numb it

The pain

This pain within

My body has been beaten in the past

My mind has been challenged in the past

My spirit has been broken in the past

And now, in the present

All of me, destroyed once again

There are times

When I wanna scream to the heavens

Shout it out

Cry it out

And let the tears wash it away

I feel the storm brewing inside me

An immense cloud

Of the deepest black

Circling, growing

I can feel the lightning zapping

Chocking my heart

Demanding to be released

But it won´t go

I don’t know why

I want to

I wanna let it go

Run it´s course

And set me free

But, again, it won´t leave me

My sobs come up from my chest

Just to die in my throat

My tears fill my eyes

And don´t run down my cheeks

My cry of agony comes out muffled

Why, I ask myself

The answer

Oh, man, wish I knew

I need help